Personal Branding Equity

Thank God, although the weather for today's after 6pm was not good, i still came to class so that gave me inspiration to write this blog :P

It is because i attended today's marketing class, we discussed about branding equity. 30 minutes before class over, lecturer gave us time to think about our personal branding equity. What is our equity that make us different with other people, that make us be chosen out of others.

Well, it was hard for me at first, because this kind of question usually asked if we do the job interview, which is every time i got call for job interview, it is always hard to describe about myself.

It might be not our fault to think hard about ourself, how good we give value about ourself, how well we know ourself, because i think it is because school that we attended since kid did not provide us lessons like this, so we have to know it more by digging that knowledge by ourself.

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So, i think hard about myself, how i could be 'useful' for others, how i could be me, that is different that other people. Here are some of my 'overconfident' branding equity about myself: :D

The most valuable thing that i want people think about when they heard something about me is: a good listener. It is because i have this passion: i love to hear what people told about their stories, their problems. Sometimes, people tend to hear the problem for giving comments, replies, moreover, giving judgement. But for me, i tried to put myself in their position first, if i were them, what i would feel, what kind of action that i want to do, what are the risks of doing each of actions. Sometimes, listening them and knowing their condition are what people want to get from telling their stories, because they don't always want to get suggestions. 

Second, i want people know me as a punctual person. Well, i know that every little time that passed even for one second can't be taken back. So, i really appreciate time. When people want to meet me, it means that they want to give some of their time for me, and if they come on time, they appreciate my time that i've spare to them.

Actually it is kinda hard for me knowing about myself, so i asked some of friends about me. I consider it as my brand equity, lol. Some friends told me that i am friendly. Am i?? They told me that i am categorised as a sociable person, that i could easily enter some community and become part of community fast. I actually don't think the same as my friends' thought. But, i more considered my self as a friendship maintainer (lol, pardon my language). I tried to contact some of my friends (especially gay one, because you know, gay tends to come and leave soon as their found that the people they just knew didn't quietly matched their criteria- even the motive is friendship.) I message them, asking about their life. Maybe, some of them may think that i am 'kepo'. But, well, people could think whatever their want, at least i do it for valuing my brand equity, lol.

Maybe that's enough for me writing my brand equity-related-to this blog, because i think reader would lazy to read the long written post, right? Besides, if i write others like i am discipline, could work under pressure, diligent, blah blah that is irrelevant and no point for finding someone special here #eh #wrongmotive lol.

As human, there is time when i didn't accomplish all those things. Maybe because i didn't concentrate enough to hear the problems, or maybe because at that time i had my own problem, etc. But well, i think, that's a normal thing. And i will try to fix it, so if people think about those three bold words above,  without thinking they will directly point me. :P

I won't write my weaknesses in here because my weaknesses could effect my equity, lol, so maybe next time in other post. And yes, feel free to add another brand equity of me by dropping comments here. :D

Grateful September

September has ended.

Before sleeping, i reminisced what i have done in last month.

Well, it turns out that in September, i moved out (again) from my beloved home to the capital of Indonesia. I have several reasons why i moved here.

The main reason is.. Because i took the wrong major for my undergraduate program. Well, people always ask about what major i took when i wanted to search about job. I already felt wrong and i know for sure that i don't want to work in the same fields as my undergrad degree's major. So, i wanted to take the master degree. If you asked me whether i took the wrong major or not, well... I don't know, but i think it is better and at least this major is more general than the previous one.

Second.. Actually i wanted to fix my relationship with my last ex. I knew that long distance relationship can't be done forever. I also knew that we cannot force someone to do their best for us. So, i am the one who wanted to give my best, my effort to fix our relationship. At least, although i cannot fix it, i know that i've tried.

Last but not least, it is because i use to live with friends around me. When i lived with my family there, for about 2 months more, i just once hangout with my high school friends. And we could hangout together, because one of my very best friend leaving country for about 3 years. Well, to make it short, it was because i felt lonely.

Thank God that i could enroll to this master degree without coming there to take kind of tests. So in the middle of September, me and family looked for rented room and found the one that is near my campus, so it's so efficient.

Few days after moved in, i felt uncomfortable. Before, although i felt lonely, but in my home still i had family that i could talk to. Living in here also not that easy. The weather is much hotter than in previous city. In addition, i had to decide what i am going to eat, and to eat it alone. Seems like here is worse, right T.T

Still Thank God, i always know that He wouldn't abandoned His son. For about few days later, i knew some friends here, and one of my friend here really welcomed me. His name is Hansel. And now, seems like me and him are knowing each other for a very long time, like a big bro to me.

How Life Changed Me (Part 2)

Related-with previous post.

Actually i know the reason why i've changed.

The core of the changes is simply because of life. As life i went through as a teenager, i did have a crush on someone, i fell in love, i had a date, and of course i fell a broken heart as well.

But, because i am a melancholy and a perfectionist guy. I believed that even gay could have a probability that could just only date one person (the right one, the first love) for living together, happily ever after. And i wanted to be like that so badly. But you know, dating someone means it's not only you who work on relationship. Sometimes a relationship shaky, even break up. That's actually a normal thing. In the end, we broke up, i had a broken heart. I found myself quite depressed that time.

I need one and a half year to move on from my first ex. It is really a long period of time, right (sigh). And i think i lost the old of me, on the process of moving on.

What i got as a lesson from relationship is: Don't love someone too much, because that too much thing could hurt you so much. Well, so many quotes about love, when you read it, actually some of them are contradict from one and another. Just believe what you like, but you have to be open minded to read and understand the other contradict quotes. Maybe for now you can't believe the contradict one, but when you had a broken heart or other hurt things, you will start believe at one and maybe leaving other quotes that you believed before. Regardless of everything, it's all quotes are made by human

Well, thank God that i know the bad things of my personality and i am trying to fix it. I don't want to fix the bad things because of anyone, but because i know that this is bad influences, and i should leave it.

How Life Changed Me (Part 1)

Last night, i opened my old blog, seeing the posts that i still keep it in draft. Reading my old posts make me realize that i have changed. I do really become a different person.

From small things: i don't know whether this is part of me that already become mature, or other aspects change me, but seeing old times, actually i found myself as a 'funny' guy. So many words there that i purposely made wrong and i gave a scribble like this for entertaining the readers. Well, i told you guys this not because i used to be alay, but i was a cheerful-pure kiddo back then (lol).

In socialization, i used to be happy seeing new friends, dare to greet them, ask his/her name first, etc (i was a very friendly guy :P). Even for saying sorry and thank you for me were so easily said. It was like a habit for saying thank you and sorry without any burden.

Well, if you compared it with the 'now' me:

I prefer spend my time alone for hours to hangout with people. When i meet new people, i tend to be silent 'till the other greeted me first. i feel insecure when i was in a new place or with new people around me. I know that it is not good for me but i still do it (sigh).

For the thankyou-sorry thing. I think i've changed too. Two days ago, i took a free shuttle bus. When i arrived at the destination, other people said thank you to the driver. I even forgot that i should thank the driver for giving a free ride. The worse thing is, after they said thank you, i just keep silent taking off the bus.

Oh my, why i could become this kind of person.

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But, hey, don't be afraid of me (lol)

I am a nice person. (well, basically people are nice until some trigger made him become a bad one, right?) I still can be a best friend for my best friends. I heard their stories and tried to understand them, tried to put my position if i were them (but i am lack at giving suggestions). It's not because i am afraid to lose them, but because i care about them.

On social media, if you are chatting with me, you know that sometimes i greeted you guys first, right? Moreover, i often become the talkative one. Sometimes i gave a silly jokes, simply for the conversation more colorful. But well, Not everything would be the same if you meet me in person. It would be more awkward because in chatting, i could think first about what i want to write, and of course both you and i can't see one another directly. You guys would understand, wouldn't you?

Hello World

I still can't believe that I am becoming a blogger (again). It is simply just because i knew people, and he has a blog. Reading his blog make me miss how i write again. (thanks to him)

So here I am..

Well, this is my second blog. My first blog that i've been written is already abandoned because of some reasons. Besides, that blog i created in 2010 (when i was 19), and reading it again made me feel creepy about myself (lol)

As a book has an author, so is this blog. Below are some information about me:

My nick is Ndr, i live as an Aries (actually i don't really believe zodiac, but still i wrote it, lol), i was born in Indonesia as  Chinese, on 1991 with an O blood type, I am Christian, and yes, i am gay.

In my 'real life', my straight friends don't know the fact that i am gay. So, technically i am still inside of closet, discreet, whatever the names are. So if you know me in real life, i prefer to be called Ndr on this blog.

The purpose why i start to make a blog, is because i want to share some of my thoughts while i am doing autobiography of my life that maybe can't be exposed in my real life, forever.

That's all for now, thanks for entering my blog, dropping some comments would be much appreciated, but if you don't like my blog, just simply close it, thanks :)

Ps: My english grammar, structure maybe are not exactly correct, but i guess as long as the readers could understand, it should be no problem, right? It's not because i want go international (lol), i just want to improve my english skill.